I often hear people say with pride that they are a certain way and they’ve always been like that as if that was the only and best option for them. Even though I am not here to judge anyone,  comments like that make me wonder what would the world be if everything refused to change. Can you imagine if a seed refused to break up into pieces? If it said “This is who I am and who I have always been and I don’t need to change? Can you imagine if the egg and the sperm did the same? If they refused to come together, to connect and break into pieces in order to become an entirely different being? If they were scared of becoming one with one another? And what would have happened if humanity decided to settle? Would we have created tools, would we have traveled, would we have bettered our lives, came up with medicines and airplanes?

The entire realm of nature exists because change is a constant, everything is always transforming, renewing, adapting, growing. Nature shows us how to live from the heart, how to appreciate the present, how to understand and surrender to the beautiful flow of energy we are part of. Whether we accept it or not, nothing is ever the same, nothing stays the same, it is not supposed to.

As humans, as part of this planet, it is healthy to constantly look within, to find what no longer serves, to stop excusing behaviors over old beliefs. As beings of love and light, it is fundamental to let go of the excuses behind the phrase “This is how it has always been” because we can only learn when we are open to everything. We can only grow through the transmutation of what was into all the possibilities of what it can be. We can only feel free when we see our own power to create through change. We are always becoming something, might as well be something of our conscious creation.

Let change come in. Open your heart. Become who you were always meant to be. 




A conversation with love



I am love, I am here, present in your life, ready to create with you. I hear you are excited and also a bit scared. I see that you are not sure of what to do, that I am a strong force that has been misunderstood by many for thousands of years. I understand the need to make sense, control, possess. But trust me, none of that can tame the light of love.

There’s no possessing, holding onto nor owning pure love. This energy I am will flow through you and feed your soul. It is nothing like you’ve ever felt my love. And I am choosing to give it to you. I am choosing to be with you. In you. For you.

The movies will show you perfect stories. And they will show you horror stories too. The brain will want to take over, but there’s really nos such thing as love is here to be felt with all senses. So just feel it, allow it to take over, to feed you, to caress you, to hold you in the now. It doesn’t matter if we stay together, if we don’t. The feeling, the heart being opened, that’s all that matters.

You will feel it in your mind, soul, spirit and body. You will feel it because I am taking you to this place of pure love and freedom. This place of unconditional love where you can see the beauty of your own light.

I choose you. I have always chosen you. And I will always choose you.

And this place is different. It is amazing. No possession, no attachment, no expectation, no formats or titles, simply love. Pure love. Freedom in love. Rising in love.

I see tears in your eyes my love. It is ok to cry, you are releasing the last of your fears. I trust you are ready for it. I trust you are strong for the amazing ride and I am humbled that you let me guide you. We are going to your pure soul, back to your heart. And if you surrender to me, you will find the beauty that you really are.





This is the only way

I focus on love not because i am positive all the time. 20170809_162330 (1)

I focus on love not because i ignore what is unpleasant, what needs to change, what causes pain.

I focus on love not because i am in love, even though i can be absolutely in love with everything that surrounds me.

I focus on love not just because i believe life is perfect and every moment is a lesson learned and a thrill conquered.

I focus on love because i think that is the only way.

I focus on love because i think it changes the game.

I focus on love because i see it with my eyes, and it looks beautiful.

I focus on love because it makes us stronger.

I focus on love because love brings us closer.

I focus on love because in love there’s no fear, no prejudice, no violence.

I focus on love because love allows and love is free.

I focus on love because love is part of you and me.

I focus on love because that is the only tool that will help us change, inside and out.

I focus on love because when we love, we do not expect, we forgive, we grow.

I focus on love because we need to expand.

I focus on love because our entire universe is made of it, each particle, each breath.

I focus on love because of the power it has to transform.

I focus on love because i am, you are, we are


antika alanlar




Liquid Yoga at Yoga Expo 2018

Something really amazing happens when we let go, when we stop thinking so much, analyzing everything. Something amazing happens when we ground, stomping our feet, moving our body at will. Something amazing happens at the beat of the drum and the beat of each heart. Something truly wonderful happens when we move into the heart. Humans crave connection, they are playful and loving and in their natural state of being. Before they are taught gender, color, status, rules and regulations. Humans are a ball of golden energy ready to explode in laughter and love. At the beat of the drum we go back there. In each liquid move we find our way back to the heart. In each hip movement we shed years of conditioning and expectations.

Teaching Liquid Yoga classes is always a transformative experience. I learn from them as their beauty and light make me humble. I learn from them as their tears translate my struggles too. I learn from them as we hold hands to feel a huge surge of powerful energy that goes through each perfect body and it is propelled by each heartbeat. An incredible time, shared by all, guided by something beyond my own knowledge.

I am grateful, honored truly, to be a chosen guide for this revolution of souls that starts with my own.

Let’s set up more encounters, more groups, more time to share our hearts my loves.

I am ready. And so are you.





Dear sister

Late late night poetry…

Dear sister,

Please love yourself.
Love yourself enough that you won’t allow any games to be played with you.
Love yourself enough so you won’t fall for any fake promises nor fake fairytale story.
Love yourself enough to know the man that will take the path with you and do not take any less than that.
Love yourself enough to not believe in the idea that age matter, that you can only be loved if you are young or if you look a certain way.
Love yourself enough to not fall for the marketing that makes you feel less so you buy more.
Love yourself enough to take on your life, to follow your dreams, to be your true self.
Love yourself enough to say no to all things that only take from you and love yourself enough to say yes to everything that makes your heart smile. Everything!
Dear sister, love yourself enough to dance and play and live your own way.
Love yourself enough to eat healthy and sleep more.
Love yourself enough to create your own life, free of cultural expectations and rules and regulations.
Love yourself enough to take time off. To put people off of your life and make space for new adventures and friends.
Love yourself enough to make constant improvement – body, mind and soul.
Love yourself enough my love, so much so that you can love all of your other sisters too.
Love yourself enough my dear so you can be free.



No, i am not always happy.

No, i am not always strong.

I am not always in love even though i am love.

No, i am not always positive even though i am always grateful.

No, i am not always secure and i am not always patient.

And sometimes i can be needy too.

But i am always understanding.

And i choose my reactions.

I choose to process my feelings in the healthiest way possible.

I choose to always, always be kind and loving.

Even when i do not feel it.

I understand i am having a human experience and that life is made of ups and downs. That is the exciting part, the learning process, the continuous challenge and growth. There is no fun on a flat rollercoaster, not a bit. The fun is on the learning, processing, getting frustrated, falling in love, rising in love, being afraid, being beyond brave, allowing it all. ALLOW. ALL NOW. Even the hurt, the shadow, the shit. We need the shadow to recognize the light. And it is all part of the same heart. And sometimes we just have to go within and clean up.

So i choose to show the shadow. To see it. To dance with it. I show to be open and vulnerable because that is when i learn the most.

I choose to keep an open heart because the heart needs to allow flow.

I choose to let the hurt out and create space for love to come in and for that i need to put my guard down, destroy any barriers and love it all, both shadow and light.

I am open.

I am vulnerable.

I am shadow.

And i am light.

But most of all, i am love.




Me too

IMG_3947As the #metoo movement gains notoriety and all of the news are filled with rape allegations and “journalists” analyzing (judging) the facts, the warrior in me gets inflamed. How is it possible to see women agreeing with all of this, women publicly judging those who came out to tell their story? And I have to say that women like these are as much to blame as the men behind the sexual assault accusations, women like these most likely help raise the very men that feel entitled to someone else’s body. I refuse to believe women are powerless. I simply refuse. I know for a fact that it takes a huge amount of strength to speak up against any of the patriarchal rules. Although I haven’t been raped, I also have been “grabbed”, kissed, groped without consent and even have been yelled at and threatened for defending myself. I also have been sent unsolicited dick pictures and felt in danger after being sent angry messages because I politely refused to go out with someone. But my deepest experience of society’s and women’s bigotry comes from the biggest lesson in my life: my divorce. Through those very dark months I was taught we are not victims, we can fight back and we can change the outcome of our experience. We do have the power to change.

My story is a very common one, one that many women and men can tell nowadays. Married for 7 years and mother of a 4 and a 18 month old I come to find out my husband had been cheating on me for almost a year. Being at a vulnerable moment with small kids, still breastfeeding and still returning to my original shape, the news of such actions made me feel like the most undesirable, most hideous, most faulty human on Earth. I was broken, nauseous, lost and scared and decided to take some time and try to figure things out for myself and for my kids. I went on victim mode, angry mode, depressed mode and at that time I had a few good friends and the family to support me. Six months went by and nothing changed, he continued to spend time with her, I continued to feel hopeless and defeated and the less I spoke the more verbal abuse I heard. Until the day my little one saw me crying on the floor and brought me a ripped piece of toilet paper, then told me “Don’t cry. I don’t like to see you crying”. At that very moment I understood that I was only a victim because I was choosing to be one and I was dragging my children with me. At that moment I’ve decided I wanted better, I, we deserved better.

Little did I know that my decision on separation and divorce would cause me to lose all of my support, all of my married friends slowly moved away from me and in the distance I heard “This is what men do”, “You can’t do it on your own”, “You will never find someone that would take on a woman and two kids” and so on. Needless to say I was surprised to find out that at the instant I  left the “married women club” I’d be put aside because I dared to break the rules, I dared to not accept a life like that, I dared to wish for true love and happiness. I have become a threat to their fake story, to their insecurities, I was there to show them there was a way out and I was brave enough to do it.  I was an unwanted mirror that made them look into themselves, into their marriages and into their values. And instead of looking at the mirror like I did, facing the good and the bad, they chose to walk away and pretend they didn’t see anything, all for the sake of the marriage institution, the “security” of it and the idea that it is easier to settle because women do not survive without men and men will always do what men do. Not me.

So as I went on finding my new life, new love, new friends, I continued to see and hear from men and women how sorry they were that I was single, how difficult it must be to not have a man and how difficult it would be to be happy unmarried. And in order to survive I decided to open my heart, to look within, to fix myself, to become a better woman, mom, partner, lover. I refused to give up on myself, to become the “cheated”, the “divorced”, the “failure”. I refused to believe in what I was being told. As I studied yoga, psychology and other texts on love and relationships, I realized how women place more value on our wedding day then on our graduation day. How we value ourselves through the man that is by our side and not by what we have accomplished so far. Worst yet, we value ourselves by the happiness of that man over our own. And by acting like this we show our daughters and sons how to be, we show them it is ok to be a victim, it is ok to put the husband first, it is ok for man to cheat. We show our girls it is ok to be with a married man….

I believe we can choose differently. I believe the power of change is in our hands. If not a single woman shows up to be the booty dancer at the video, no women will be objectified on that video. Have you thought of that? If no women goes out with a married man, if no woman accepts the place it is given to them, the patriarchs simply can’t exist! So instead of victimizing yourself, be the warrior that you can be, choose the outcome of your situation, choose to be strong, choose to break the rules, choose to say no, chose you! Let go of the pain and keep the lesson. You will be surprised to see how many people will be there to support you. You will be delighted to see how free you will feel. You will be proud of the revolution you are creating just by going deep into your heart and acting from there, even through fear, even through dark moments. I assure you, the ride will be amazing, filled with wonder, first kisses, new friends and so much love that you will end up being grateful for the shitty moment that started it all. Be the warrior. Honor yourself. Change the world. You got this! We got this!

Much love,